Leave Me (I Beg of You)
I wish memories could be deleted as easily as emails.
“ I’ve met a man and fallen in love with him. I allowed myself to fall in love for one simple reason: I’m not expecting anything to come of it. I know that, in three months’ time, I’ll be far away and he’ll be just a memory, but I couldn’t stand living without love any longer; I had reached my limit…
Generally speaking, these meetings occur when we reach a limit, when we need to die and be reborn emotionally. These meeting are waiting for us, but more often than not, we avoid them happening. If we are desperate, though, if we have nothing to lose, or if we are full of enthusiasm for life, then the unknown reveals itself, and our universe changes directions.
— Paulo Coelho (Eleven Minutes)
No Big Deal
I’m just trying to keep my head while everything I’ve ever dreamed of walks out of my life.
Are You Listening?
Strength, clarity, inner peace. These are the things I pray for every night. It helps.
Validation
me: it's hard to explain. i just feel so sure of myself.
G: I can tell
me: is that crazy?
G: No. Well yes but we call it love so it's ok
me: yeah. i kind of hate that i love him but i do. and i cant help that i do. i wish i could.
G: Yep that's love
If
I would wait forever if you asked me to.
If.
Why?
I’m beginning to wonder if this is worth it. And the very thought breaks my heart.
Space
The emotional distance is infinitely more difficult than any of the thousands of miles that ever were between us.
Broken
I feel like my heart has been ripped from my chest, fed to me and I’m now gagging on what’s left of it.
Swallowing Pride
He will give me what I need, when I need it.
That is something that has become increasingly clear to me of late. And I have just enough faith to let that truth be my comfort. There is a lesson somewhere amidst all of this.
